It Was NOT Suppose to End This Way

It was NOT suppose to end this way, but it did. What was supposed to be (for me, anyway) the final triumph, the final “hurrah” of my career before retirement instead became a very sobering reminder of the dangerous nature of the jobs we do. 2017 Fleet Week New York came to and end tonight; … Continue reading It Was NOT Suppose to End This Way

Start Spreading the News!

Start spreading the news!  We’re leaving tomorrow morning from the Navy Public Affairs Support Element East (NPASE East) for New York City. Starting Tuesday the Big Apple is hosting the 29th annual Fleet Week New York, a huge celebration of the sea services that will swamp New York City with enough ships to, well, make … Continue reading Start Spreading the News!

Poetry Night!

The future may feel dark and life overwhelming, but if you can write, if you can put word to paper, you are never alone!  Even a simple haiku can break your isolation. Unendurable Nathanael Miller, 30 April 2017  Unendurable. To forever sit alone; The night never ends. ***  The Future is Dark Nathanael Miller, 30 … Continue reading Poetry Night!

No Signposts

The unknown frightens; Planning used to rule my life. Now I’ve no signposts.  A haiku I wrote titled, appropriately, “No Signposts.” Every military member, regardless of branch of service, shares two unique experiences that civilians will never truly grasp: the moment of putting on the uniform and relinquishing much control over one’s life to a … Continue reading No Signposts

The Good Times: Beauty and the Beast

I make no apologies for writing about the dark things in life.  I believe sharing my struggles and my successes in coping will help increase awareness of mental health issues, at least a little. However, my life is not all dark.  As I race towards the conclusion of my naval career, I will rest my … Continue reading The Good Times: Beauty and the Beast

Inner Visions

Writing is good for me.  I have attempted suicide many, many years ago.  I have dealt with a serious fight with depression and anxiety for my entire adult life, and it was not always recognized for what it really was.  This left me to muddle along without proper treatment and support for a very long … Continue reading Inner Visions

What Was It All For?

Right out the gate let me tell you that I have been living with chronic depression and anxiety for, well, most of my life.  Despite the jovial, irreverent facade most people see during the day, the core emotional reality I experience nearly all day long, every day, is a dark melancholy, a Black Hole.  No … Continue reading What Was It All For?